Maybe I should take all political candidates and people off of my Facebook Feed. Maybe I can use this, maybe there are no mistakes and getting fired up is exactly what I need.
Here's what I'm seeing:
Government of Alberta: Smug, Smug, Smug, Smuggity, Smug, Smug
Opposition: Scorn, Scorn, Scorn, Scoff, Scornity, Scoff, Scoff, Scoff
and it's not partisan, I saw this when the Conservatives were in too. Having ads that show what great things you are doing just hit me wrong, and they both do it- isn't that your job? I have to say- I try that at home too- LOOK AT ME- I MADE SUPPER, I GOT UP today, I MADE YOUR LUNCH... in script at the bottom - "your Mom cares". I'd rather the 'we are helping you' was obvious and the ad dollars went to something else.
Here's how I'm feeling. I feel like when I'm in the car and the kids are in the back bickering. When I see the tweets, when I see the posts and when I see article's and comment sections that have to do with anything political. Bickering. I want to say "if you kids don't start getting along your both going to walk- now grow up and get along".
Now, I have to make the swing from outside to inside- if this is bugging me it's not their deal (how I wish I could just make it their deal and continue with my rant!). As within so without, as above so below, thank you Hermes. I'm not responsible for the governments behavior- they haven't made me grand Mom yet (yet...). I am responsible for my own peace of mind and I really don't want to go into today all fired up about something I can't control.
So, does smug and scorn and scoffity, scoff live in me...eek, think there may be shades of it right above. My "I know" mind, based on a limited spectrum of knowledge is happy to defend herself. She's a self righteous do gooder (if you are reading Circle of Trust she's the Rescuer). On the other side is "who the hell do you think you are?" laid back and harumphing at my 'I'm so right'.
So, do I need a 'get along shirt?'
I am the Mom to me, and I do have Holy Spirit help (Jesus take the wheel!). So if I want peace of mind, and I do, I need to let go, put down my defenses (I'm right and I'm wrong) and return to Grace. Trust myself, trust others and trust that bigger picture.
Everything is unfolding, my part to play will be obvious (blog away) and we are ultimately figuring it out. Growing up happens, it's natural and requires gentle tending. So I'm saying to those kids inside me, I hear you - you are better together - we are going to be okay. As within, so without, let's see how this goes.
#donewiththedrama #circleoftrust
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Monday, November 21, 2016
Do Be Do Be Do
I’m seeing some patterns here so let’s see if I can
communicate this with some consistency and get your take on it. You will need your microscope and your
telescope for this one. A couple of
weeks ago I blogged about the “State of the Province Address I Wanted to See”
and what I was trying to convey in that piece is that is not so much ‘who’ is
governing but ‘how’ we are being governed that is frustrating me. In the way that the Universe does I have
since then had a lot of evidence that supports this. Now I need to keep in mind that that’s how it
works, you make a belief and then that’s what show’s up! So let me preface by saying that this is a
temporary viewpoint and a reflection of what I’m seeing right now on this ride
we call life.
In the last week I came across an author/teacher who is
talking about us moving from ‘win-lose democracy’ to ‘cooperative’ democracy
(here’s an adorable video of her here).
This is exactly what I was talking about. Cooperative democracy- can we do that? What does that even mean and what do we need
to let go to let this grow?
Well, we need to give up fighting for our side and move to
communicating for our side. So often we
feel like the choice is fight or surrender, and in a win-lose situation I guess
that’s the option. In win-lose there is a
loser, when there is a loser in society we all lose. It creates an atmosphere of competition and
fear that interferes with our caring and supportive nature.
My opinion is that this is a societal maturation. Win-Lose democracy was an expansion beyond
autocracy and in the past 100 years we have been building a value around
individualism and expression.
I’m going to veer from the large picture here to the
individual. This win-lose democracy is
also alive and well inside of me, a near constant election is happening about
how I be or do. Ultimately I believe
there is only one choice- fear or love but I’m not always aware of that because
fear is really good at keeping me busy with other choices that are actually
choices between fear or fear (fight or flight?
Freeze? Appease?), then busy
assessing whether I made the right choice or not and finally busy meting out
punishment and reward according to the assessment.
To deal with this we’ve built up social mores and
structure. The simplest to understand is
our structures around men and women.
This is how women are ______________.
This is how men are _____________.
This has made it easier to get along while we are all fighting the
battle inside. This external authority
that was once a support to our peaceful coexistence no longer holds what we’ve
grown into. There was a time when men
had complete control over the physical domain while women were charged with the
emotional domain (obviously I’m oversimplifying all of this to make some point-
there’s always exceptions!). As women
have moved into expressing themselves in the physical domain everyone has had
to adjust! The shift has happened and
men are being expected to share the emotional load as women share the physical load,
we are all becoming more whole as a result, more complex and more diverse as
well- more of our True selves I hope, like snowflakes; each distinct. While some may see that the world has ‘gone
to hell in a handbasket’, what we are seeing is a natural growth and response
to expanded awareness and ability.
Equality is the truth and no matter how hard we try to enforce unnatural
laws, they are inherently unstable. Just
because we’ve told ourselves a story for a long time doesn’t make it true (men
aren’t as sensitive, women are too emotional, men are better leaders, can you
think of some more?).
Back to the inner battle (are you still with me?), another
way to talk about this is our inner masculine- simplified to doing and our
inner feminine – simplified to being. This
do, be, do, be, do battle is happening, it’s what you catch in meditation and
mindful activities. In this we need to
move from win-lose to cooperation- these are complementary activities. We can do so much more when we attend to our
being and we can be so much more when we also attend to the doing.
Cooperation on the outside is going to require this inside
cooperation, as Ghandi said, be the change.
Another way of saying this and another sign of societal maturity will be
a move from the need for external authority to internal authority. What a change if we could move our resources,
both emotional and physical, from control (fear) to trust! As one author says, if we could move from
spending on weaponry to lifery. So,
bottom line, use the microscope- look inside sometimes so that you can see what’s
going on in you, when you find that you can be at peace in you, well, then you
can contribute to the peace in your home and beyond until peace is what we see
in our telescope. I can get really
excited about that!
Wednesday, November 9, 2016
Donald Trump is the President Elect of the United States.
Good Morning. The world is a little rocked and a little shocked this morning. Hilary Clinton with her years of experience, her buckets of money and a carefully detailed and executed plan - her mastery of control - has been defeated by something seemingly out of control.
If you are feeling the despair and hopelessness that many of my Facebook friends are feeling, if you are asking yourself "WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?" step back with me and let's take a magnified look.
We all know somehow that going to counselling or getting coaching is helpful - so what keeps us from going? Sometimes it's time and money but most often it's that little ridge, that little lip of straight up fear that keeps us complacent, good enough and looking the other way. I feel that my role in coaching, counselling and in energy work is to simply hold your hand while you look at what you are afraid to look at. My meditation or in sessions with healers, coaches and counsellors is where I do this work myself- where I look at the darkness, where I look at the shadow.
In order to reach a goal you need to look at the reality. It's like my Visa debt, I feel ashamed about it, I wish it wasn't there, so I will tend not to look at it, in not looking at it it lingers- and in fact like a mold- it grows. The truth is- and I am purposely using a lower case truth because it's not ultimately the truth- but the truth of the current situation here on our Earth is that women, people of color and people of gender diversity are not on an equal playing field with white, heterosexual men. The capital T Truth is that we are all equal, how could it be any other way? Equal doesn't mean the same, but it does mean that shared power, value and belonging are a higher truth and more and more people are accepting this. But not everybody.
Equality requires trust and trust cannot coexist with fear, when we fear we disconnect. The people who voted for Donald Trump are disenchanted with what government has become, it happened here in the province of Alberta. Both elections prove a truth that's been forgotten, the power IS with the people- with people united. Donald Trump found a group of people who no longer felt a belonging or connection to the status quo, he gave them a voice and he developed a healthy relationship with these people- they trust him and he trusted them- he didn't put near the money or door knockers out there, he asked them to vote and they did.
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Where Donald Trump does not have a healthy relationship is with the other half of the population. The half of voters who were left in tears early this morning. These people do not trust Donald Trump and as I saw in many Twitter posts they do not feel a belonging in a Donald Trump winning America. This half see's a bully.
The antidote to bully is free expression. Now that 1/2 the country were heard it is extremely important that the other 1/2 do not fall silent. To be truly heard requires some Grace, some composure. Donald Trump and his team need to hear about women's rights, the true story of being a minority or of gender diversity in the USA (and in the world!), they need to be communicated to in a way that their hearts cannot help but open. Donald Trump is married to an immigrant and he has daughters, I'd bet anything that in that big family of his there is some gender diversity!!
People are asking this morning "what do I tell my kids?", you tell your kids that voting matters, that everyone is equal - even if society doesn't demonstrate it- it was true when slavery existed and women were considered chattel and it's True now. You impel them to be kind and to be patient with a maturing culture. You implore them to feed love and not fear.
Let's fearlessly look at our accounts, we DO NOT embrace all equally right now- maybe you do individually- but I have to say that even the most Mother Theresa of us have trouble with someone (Donald Trump for instance). When we are afraid we go to bully or rescuer or victim. When we trust we become care, support and free expression- these are the tools we need now. Feeding the drama, feeding the fear and powerlessness is not a productive use of our breath here on earth. This is the opposite of covering it up and pretending- that's what people have so strongly pushed against- I often talk about the blanket over the dog terd. You can still smell it, you still know it's there. The dog terd is in plain site this morning. This is not a personal metaphor for Donald Trump - it's a metaphor for the hidden stinkiness- the obstacles to love that are in all of us. People who do not support equality are afraid, they feel threatened. Threatened people react from that part of our brain that doesn't think, it's fight or flight- what I'm suggesting is that we do not unite there!!!
Threatened people react from that part of our brain that doesn't think, it's fight or flight- what I'm suggesting is that we do not unite there!!!
Let's stay in harmony and invite them in, listen to one another, if you have information that might alleviate fear don't stuff it down someone else's throat- we need to regulate (get safe), relate (get to know them) and then reason!! Brain science is now showing it. Using your own self awareness this is the time to resist the temptation to become aggressive or to collapse, this doesn't mean you don't feel those feelings- it means you use those feelings to construct rather than destruct, Donald Trump is not your authority- you are! Take heart in trusting the big picture, equal power, equal value and equal belonging of all people on Earth is the Truth- it is our destination, we will get there, in order to do so it's good to orient to where we are, please turn your passion towards social emotional strength- I am holding your hand, we can do this.
Thoughts?
Fawna
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Fawna
If you want to know more about the concepts in this blog post please consider buying (Amazon or me) or borrowing my new book 'Circle of Trust', the time for Healthy Relationships is upon us.
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Thursday, November 3, 2016
Blessed if I do. Blessed if I don't.
Blessed if you do, Blessed if you don’t?
How much of our precious time here do we spend ruminating on decisions Should I do this or should I do that? Is this the right thing or the wrong
thing? I don’t want to make a
mistake. Even when we have made the choice and are active in doing what we decided the voice of doubt can be incessant. That voice can make even the simplest of jobs a grind. I can't tell you how many times I've avoided certain jobs and realized that the only real difficulty in it is the rant inside "this isn't my job or why am I doing this or maybe I shoulda, coulda woulda!"
It's hard enough when you are in normal everyday life, when you start down the spiritual path you add another slate of questions “how
do I know if this is spirit or if it is ego?” and there are lots of answers for
this (one is loud, one is quiet- how it feels, etc.) but what if it doesn’t really matter?
What if we are blessed if we do, blessed if you don't? This picture is a postcard that we keep on our dresser.
I have a tendency to set the GPS in my car and then just ignore it, it adjusts. What if our way to Joy is already set in our GPS, we are
inevitably on our way and every time we take a turn it simply re-calibrates the route?
It makes me think of the artist Bob Ross and his 'happy accidents' - many a time when I am so called lost, or off track do I find a really cool store, or meet someone or come upon the magic unexpected pieces of life.
A statement that has been very supportive to me, I probably read it on a Facebook poster, has been "why do we assume that what's best for us is not what's best for everyone?"
I know that I certainly have held that belief, a hidden assumption that there is some kind of sacrifice involved. If I choose to do something I want I will either have to pay for it in some way or it will inconvenience or require sacrifice of someone else. No wonder decisions are so very hard- choosing your own heart or someone else's is not a good feeling choice at all!!
What if this entire assumption (damned if you do, damned if you don't) is upside down? And so well held that we see things through this lens. Beliefs are like colored glasses.
I am a scientist at heart, so I just suggest that you try it on, do a little experiment, for a day or an hour. What if every decision were blessed if you do, blessed if you don't. Some may be more roundabout, but a tour of the countryside can yield new experience. The other thing I like to think of are video games, in the seeking games you cannot progress unless you have right jewels or tools to advance. Think about how much more you could do if instead of paralyzed by indecision you were moving! With that said there is no need to move at all- it's not about doing more, more, more, I think we've pretty much maxed out on that. I've retired my superhero cape! The decision to do nothing at all - also blessed, you don't have to buy it yet- just imagine if that were true. I hear the arguments start right away in my head at that statement, our culture is heavily invested in the value of doing.
With that said, I believe I will start now, start with the doing nothing.
Blessed if I do, Blessed if I don't. Have a great day.
Friday, October 28, 2016
The State of the Province Speech I wanted to hear...
The State of the Province speech I wanted to hear…
Over the years I’ve been mystified (read judgmental) over
the speeches that politicians make. I
KNOW the amount they are paying communications teams. I just finished listening to Rachel Notley’s
and, while I do appreciate her public service and the inherent difficulty of
leading at this time- well, I had just hoped for something different. In hindsight I can see that this was a blind
hope- in no way is Rachel Notley governing differently than she said she would,
in no way is she wavering from her values and ideals. What I’m disappointed about is our system of
governance, party politics (dogma) and us vs. them would not be seen as the
best way to steer (as the word govern originates from) anything. We are mid sea alternating between one shore
and another- inevitably never getting anywhere.
This would not be a problem if there were no passengers
aboard- but there are- a whole province full.
A whole province full of beings with the same needs but different levels
of these needs being met. We all need
food, water, shelter, relationships and the ability to express in some way.
Here’s where I think the party system fails us- the actions
of our governance is focused on the goal of re-election and this is where the
energy on all sides is focused. The job
at hand however is care and support of the people.
So, with that background, here’s what I would have liked to
hear today.
Good Afternoon Fellow Albertans,
I’m here today to comment on the state of Alberta, I
recognize that each and every one of you have a view on what this is from where
you sit. After years of prosperity and
enjoying the Alberta Advantage we are in a different reality right now. Many of you who enjoyed that advantage are
now facing drastic changes and I recognize that the change in government a year
ago was a shock and to many of you has been an aggravation.
Our priorities as the NDP party are different than our longstanding
predeccesors but our commitment to the goal of prosperity for all Albertans is
not. The ultimate goal of all parties is
a thriving economy and quality of life for the people of this province. With the great privilege of leadership comes
the responsibility to make decisions that matter to people. Equality in this is crucial, for too long
this has been a choice of supporting the rich or supporting the poor. Well, this is no choice at all, when you don’t
support the rich you lose jobs, when you don’t support the poor you cost the
system more money. While this is
incredibly simplified I want you to hear that in order for Alberta to succeed
our people need to be supported, our people need to be cared for, we as a
governing body- both those of us in leadership and those in the opposition must
have one goal and that is creating an environment in Alberta where people are
able to express the wealth of personal contribution that they inherently
possess.
Today’s message must be one of looking forward, blaming
anyone for where we are now is not a good use of our energy. What we can do with that past information
though and from what we have learned in the past year governing this province
is to get creative. We as a province are
used to doing things different, the maverick and independence that Albertans
show again and again needs to be harnessed – but not restricted. Listening is crucial, listening to Albertans,
and you have already spoken, we don’t need to spend another dollar on
engagement, particularly if we are going to stick with dogmatic politics.
I’m calling on ourselves as the sitting party and our
complement- yes, I’m going to change the name of opposition to complement, to
sit down with our viewpoints, sit down with the voices of Albertans that we’ve already
heard and actually do the hard work of making a plan for our economy AND our social
responsibility. A plan that is not a compromise,
that is not a half way, a plan that refuses to sacrifice a perspective but an
innovation- a world leader. Let’s stop
talking about collaboration, stop talking about innovation and stop talking
about leadership and let’s do the collaborative, innovative, leading job of
actually putting it in play.
This will take a new approach, an approach that honors the
diversity of Alberta – although a new idea in government this is not innovative
in the realm of successful leadership and successful marriage. These alliances, which serve the greater good
and those they are responsible for, are most successful when they have shared
vision, communication, respect, chore sharing and the ability to rebuild – we are
not currently demonstrating these qualities as a government. There is no blame in that though as party
politics have always led to a winning and an opposing view – who could run a
marriage or a business in this way?
The state of the province is in flux, we are having to face
a movement away from relying on the instability of the energy market, our
success depends on how we approach this.
The difference between stumbling
blocks and stepping stones is how you use them, as businessman James Cash
Penney said Growth is never by mere chance; it is the
result of forces working together.
In Alberta we have a lot of forces.
We have our conservative, liberal and new democratic views, we have our new
immigrants and our first peoples and everyone in between, we are a colorful
unit.
Perhaps this sounds too soft, too airy-fairy, but to work
together is harder and more courageous than to continue tearing one another
down. My commitment as leader is to
convene a Way Forward movement. In the
interest of stability we will continue on with the plans that this government
and the previous government have set in motion and that are already being
managed by our valuable civil service and we will also meet in a new way as a
group of elected officials- as true representatives of our constituents- and we
will evolve our conversations to look for the Alberta win-win.
Finally, I cannot report on the status of Alberta without
talking about our assets. Our province
is rich in natural resources, we are wealthy in beautiful spaces, we are
abundant in technological prowess and we have the fortune of a people who come
together when times are hard, people who stand up for what they believe in,
people who take responsibility for their own chunk of this province and a
people who care about one another. As a
government we must demonstrate our worthiness to care take such treasures. I am asking you for your trust in this way
forward and that you will continue to use your voice to keep us accountable to
all perspectives. Thank You.
Sunday, May 29, 2016
Life is fun.
It's been an emotional week.
My daughter Paige's graduation ceremony exposed a hidden memory. A thought that had been carefully wrapped in the mind for just this moment. I woke up Thursday morning with a feeling that I don't have a name for. It was the same feeling that I had when we dropped Jake at University in the fall, a cocktail of pride and gratitude, bittersweet with a dash of loss.
As I sat in this and the tears rose up ( and continue to rise up every time I go there, like right now for instance) I remembered being 28 and in the hospital that first night that I was ordered to be admitted. Laying there away from my babies I was stricken at the thought of not seeing them graduate. I was not scared of cancer but I was very afraid of missing their landmarks.
Now I'm here. Is this exaltation? It's definitely an octave above gratitude. I'm glad that I'm alive. I'm glad that I have seen Jake and Paige graduate, and at the time of that great fear had no inkling that another person would be joining our family.
I'm going to switch gears here a second. My cousin-friend-sister-mighty companion Jodi and I have been talking a lot about fun. When I looked up fun (for someone who from day one wanted to know everything Google is the greatest gift) it is described as the interface, or the perfect combination of the expected and novelty. Of the known, some safety, and the unknown- a sparkle of surprise. Too much unknown and it gets scary, too much known and it's boring. Unless we've limited ourselves completely life is seldom boring, often scary, and there is a perspective that offers another option.
This is where the search has brought me. Life is fun. Spiritually I'm sitting in a place of knowing that we are eternal beings, we are energy and cannot be created nor destroyed. This eternal being is completely free and unconditionally loved. This is the known. Add in the unknown, this created, temporary condition called being human and you find the overlay that adds fun. Does this mean spiritual being alone is not fun, well, it would be beyond fun- but we are not there right now, we are here. Here at the amusement park, strapped in safely on the roller coaster.
What I'm liking about 45 is having the awareness that after every drop there is a rise. I can't tell you how many times in the past few weeks I've said "we could have relaxed if we'd had a crystal ball", My cancer, my sister in laws infertility, even the losses that we thought someone could never recover from tend to rise to unexpected and joyful places. If only I could trust that it would all work out. From here it's getting easier, and supported by faith that in the end it is all truly well allows for a safe dance floor to swing about with the unknown.
The mantra that's been coming has been 'you are taken care of'. Comforting, it's allowing me to slow down, allowing me to play.
Maybe I am graduating too.
With Love,
Fawna
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Coming soon: The Circle of Trust : a way to healthy relationships
My daughter Paige's graduation ceremony exposed a hidden memory. A thought that had been carefully wrapped in the mind for just this moment. I woke up Thursday morning with a feeling that I don't have a name for. It was the same feeling that I had when we dropped Jake at University in the fall, a cocktail of pride and gratitude, bittersweet with a dash of loss.
As I sat in this and the tears rose up ( and continue to rise up every time I go there, like right now for instance) I remembered being 28 and in the hospital that first night that I was ordered to be admitted. Laying there away from my babies I was stricken at the thought of not seeing them graduate. I was not scared of cancer but I was very afraid of missing their landmarks.
Now I'm here. Is this exaltation? It's definitely an octave above gratitude. I'm glad that I'm alive. I'm glad that I have seen Jake and Paige graduate, and at the time of that great fear had no inkling that another person would be joining our family.
I'm going to switch gears here a second. My cousin-friend-sister-mighty companion Jodi and I have been talking a lot about fun. When I looked up fun (for someone who from day one wanted to know everything Google is the greatest gift) it is described as the interface, or the perfect combination of the expected and novelty. Of the known, some safety, and the unknown- a sparkle of surprise. Too much unknown and it gets scary, too much known and it's boring. Unless we've limited ourselves completely life is seldom boring, often scary, and there is a perspective that offers another option.
This is where the search has brought me. Life is fun. Spiritually I'm sitting in a place of knowing that we are eternal beings, we are energy and cannot be created nor destroyed. This eternal being is completely free and unconditionally loved. This is the known. Add in the unknown, this created, temporary condition called being human and you find the overlay that adds fun. Does this mean spiritual being alone is not fun, well, it would be beyond fun- but we are not there right now, we are here. Here at the amusement park, strapped in safely on the roller coaster.
What I'm liking about 45 is having the awareness that after every drop there is a rise. I can't tell you how many times in the past few weeks I've said "we could have relaxed if we'd had a crystal ball", My cancer, my sister in laws infertility, even the losses that we thought someone could never recover from tend to rise to unexpected and joyful places. If only I could trust that it would all work out. From here it's getting easier, and supported by faith that in the end it is all truly well allows for a safe dance floor to swing about with the unknown.
The mantra that's been coming has been 'you are taken care of'. Comforting, it's allowing me to slow down, allowing me to play.
Maybe I am graduating too.
With Love,
Fawna
Read Full Cancer Story
Coming soon: The Circle of Trust : a way to healthy relationships
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